What is this perpetual feeling of inadequacy that I cannot fathom?
Where did it stem from, and what does it feed on?

"My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellation."(My knee) will never be the same ever again.
Although I've never dropped a tear over it since everything happened, sometimes I can't help but feel like it nonetheless.
:"(

You say you don't want me to worry but you tell me the end of the story, with no head and in between.

Now, how do you expect me not to worry?

This is how selfish Humanity is. 3 Apr 2012 6:21 AM (13 years ago)

This is how selfish we all are.

I Don't Know 17 Mar 2012 4:49 AM (13 years ago)

how I manage to incubate my thoughts sometimes.

Emotions are common; they are not exclusive to each individual. While one is hurting, another far away could be feeling the same, possibly worst.

How is it that the motion of life, albeit separate, can be so largely similar?

I've been incubating thoughts and actions for years that I've always feared to act on, to shout it out loud.

In all honesty, I don't believe I am there yet. Baby steps that take years to progress...

Been out from sports for a month now. I've never been more patient than I am today, and I have no idea how I braced this month.

In fact, I don't really remember how everything happened - the chronology, the pain, the ordeal, the emotions.

I just want to get by, get past, and forget.

I've thoughts to pen but I'm hesitant to fill this space.When Life was much Simpler;They say a picture paints a thousand words.

So I guess I should let images, photos convey my thoughts for me.

I won't be here anymore.

Find me where the blue birds chirp and where thoughts are stored in the place your water is kept warm.

paper-backed.

Heartbeats 22 Mar 2011 9:26 PM (14 years ago)

Heartbeats Lyrics
by Ellie Goulding

One night to be confused
One night to speed up truth
We had a promise made
Four hands and then away

Both under influence
We had divine scent
To know what to say
Mind is a razor blade

To call for hands from above to lean on
Wouldn’t be good enough for me now

One night of magic rush
The start a simple touch
One night to push and scream
And then relief

Ten days of perfect tunes
The colors red and blue
We had a promise made
We were in love

To call for hands from above to lean on
Wouldn’t be good enough for me now

To call for hands from above to lean on
Wouldn’t be good enough

And you
You knew the hand of a devil
And you
Kept us awake with wolves teeth
Sharing different heartbeats in one night

To call for hands from above to lean on
Wouldn’t be good enough for me now

To call for hands from above to lean on
Wouldn’t be good enough for me now

To lean on
Wouldn’t be good enough for me now

-Ellie Goulding

In life, everything and everyone is replaceable.

The only difference is the degree of replacement.

I don't really know how to say this, but how are two people friends, yet strangers at the same time?

Sitting across the table and exchanging "updates" of our lives that dated back to 5, 6 years ago, it's like playing catch up with something that was never ahead of you.

Yet at the same time, it's like digging into a buried hole to (re)discover a treasure you once found but soon forgot.

Time is relative, and it only passes as fast as we define it to.

Sometimes, things we thought were put behind us, come back to haunt you cos they never really became The Past.

A Night 24 Feb 2011 8:48 AM (14 years ago)

of BBQ, Friendships, Old times, (future) Uncertain times, Induction, Beers, Bins, Underwear tearing, Cheese+Body wash in the hair, Buttered faces, Satay sauced hair wash,

and last but not least, funnnn!

Dear Life/Time, 23 Feb 2011 3:49 AM (14 years ago)

Could you kindly slow down just a little for me, please?

Sincerely,

Student with too many things to do/go for.

Rule of Threes 13 Feb 2011 6:15 AM (14 years ago)

"The important thing is to abide by the rule of threes. Either you see a woman three times in quick succession and then never again, or you maintain relations over the years but make sure that the rendezvous are at least three weeks apart."

--Tomas, The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Now, everywhere I go or everything I do seems to link with this.

PS: Might just be adopting a Rule of Threes relationship with trainings.

TheUnbearableLightnessOfBeing 13 Feb 2011 2:18 AM (14 years ago)

Part 1: Lightness and Weight
Part 2: Soul and Body
Part 3: Words Misunderstood
Part 4: Soul and body
Part 5: Lightness and Weight
Part 6: The Grand March
Part 7: Karenin's Smile

Outdated, I know. But this is my current Read.

Someone once told me, she had second thoughts before lending the book to me.

But I'm really loving it so far.

When the lights go out,

We'll be safe and sound.

We'll take control of the world,

Like it's all we have to hold on to

And we'll be, a Dream.

Red Green Blue,

Don't you have better things to do?

You dig up history,

read into the past.

But everything has already moved on fast.

Take a bow,

walk away.

Leave me out of this mess, I say.

I'm not interested,

unlike what You've insisted.

I have my own,

so please leave me alone.

Watching ANTM cycle 15 makes me wanna DEMAND to go Venice for Graduation!

One More Thing. 2 Feb 2011 6:51 AM (14 years ago)

The Blue Moon.

I'll never forget. =)

WE DID IT. 2 Feb 2011 6:34 AM (14 years ago)

Omg, the last time I hit this space was......... 10 december.

I don't even have a regular habit of checking paper-backed anymore!

It's not that I don't pen my thoughts down anymore, No wait. I don't. HAHA

Anyway, just for memories sake. Hopefully when I check my archives 10 years later, this post will bring smiles and tears. Haha.

I.VP 2010/11 CHAMPIONS YO!

Thank you, Everyone for believing, for supporting, for encouraging.

My team, you girls played so well, especially during the finals, that EVERYONE there told me we deserved to win.

For a second, I thought we would lose it. For every touch down we worked so hard for, we let in another as easy as sand through my fingers. Was I Disheartened? Slightly.

Score was Half time was 3-3.

Full time score was 7-3.

I remember saying before the game, that we must run like we believe it, pass like we believe the person next to us, and defend like we want it. And we did.

Thank you girls, for giving me the honour to lead you to glory and for playing like we've never did before.

And no better way to end the season than with sinful indulgence of KOI and MCDONALDS :D :D

WE ARE A CHAMPION TEAM!

And the world seems like a better place now =)

I picked you out
Of a crowd and talked to you
Said I liked your shoes
You said thanks can I follow you?
So it's up the stairs
And out of view
No prying eyes
I poured some wine
I asked your name you asked the time
Now it's two o'clock,
the club is closed we're up the block
Your hands on me
I'm pressing hard against your jeans
Your tongue in my mouth
Trying to keep the words from coming out
You didn't care to know
Who else may have been you before
I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I thought he said to meet me here but I'm not sure
I got the money if you got the time
You said it feels good I said I'll give it a try
Then my mind went dark
We both forgot where your car was parked
Let's just take the train
I'll meet up with the band in the morning
Bad actors with bad habits
Some sad singers
They just play tragic
And the phone's ringing
And the van's leaving
Let's just keep touching
Let's just keep keep singing
I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Where's the kid with the chemicals
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind
But you but you
You write such pretty words
But life's no story book
Love's an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt
"Do you like to hurt?"
"I do! I do!"
"Then hurt me."

bringiton. 28 Nov 2010 5:48 AM (14 years ago)

Today I learnt the progression of my Mixed Team Captain's Level of Intensity.

He always wears a cap, so the progression goes like this:

(Lowest Intensity) Cap -> Wear cap the other way round (like a Kid Rapper) -> Throw the cap on the ground (Mega Intense + Aggressive )

I shall find my level of intensity and aggression like his too. With my books, for my exams.

Maybe I'll start with filling up my pencil case. So the fatter it is, the more intense I am with studying =)

HEHEHEHE.

Rockmelt is so confusing!Yesterday, someone insulted the person I was talking to (not a friend of mine, thankfully) and said that in response to her conversation, I should've just said "Sorry. I don't talk to ugly people."

Then I looked at the person who said that and wondered,
"Are you very good looking yourself?"

Hmm. Mankind.

Goodnight, whoever still comes here!

Haha

June and December are such sacred months, and nothing academic should EVER fall onto these months.

They should be untouchable, fully dedicated for recuperating and resting.

I hate it, hate it that I have to spend my December as a slave to my books, slogging to study.

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