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Slipping 30 May 2013 | 11:54 pm
I’m starting to slide down and I can’t easily describe why I know. My sleep has altered, my concentration has altered, my thoughts have gone a shade darker, I care less than I did. Saw the tattoo on m...
Caught 29 May 2013 | 02:57 am
I had a genuine Parent moment the other day. It was a nice day so I took the dogs to the field in the morning to run off some energy. They’d been out twice the day before for good walks so I half-exp...
Nope 26 May 2013 | 03:13 am
My eldest daughter is doing her nurse training and her next placement is FDL. That’s the same FDL that I should be attending at the same time. So I therefore won’t be. I said before that I didn’t thin...
Highway to Hell 25 May 2013 | 02:22 am
This is how it goes. My opinion of me is very fragile. When it is damaged by someone - or by me - it hurts a great deal. It’s at that point when I want/need to not only be told I’m okay but feel it to...
Want 24 May 2013 | 01:30 am
I want to have to choose a safeword. I want to really want to use the safeword - but not. I want to listen for a safeword. I want to feel safe enough with someone that I’d trust them with a safewor...
Level 20 May 2013 | 01:28 am
I’ve been fairly level for a while and I was pondering yesterday why. I was wondering why because as yet I’ve heard nothing from Francis Dixon Lodge about their pathways group and although I want to I...
A moment on the lips 17 May 2013 | 12:46 am
Woke this morning at around 6am. I was lying on my left side looking across the pillow toward the wife. I could see something odd in my vision. I closed my right eye. The view looked perfectly normal ...
Scares 14 May 2013 | 06:42 pm
Life comes with many challenges. The ones that should not scare us are the ones we can take on and take control of. Angelina Jolie. You can’t control your head so well can you? You can’t control what...
A picture 14 May 2013 | 04:03 pm
Last night I wrote this on twitter: Realised there is something I have never written about on my blogs. Wondering if I should, why I haven’t. Odd given what I have written.. This was caused by my log...
Something changed 5 May 2013 | 08:51 pm
Something changed yesterday, maybe the day before but I saw it yesterday. I’ve had episodes before when I get an overwhelming desire to sleep. It feels like my face and head just want to close, to sh...
